Photography by Peter Tran.
atychiphobia (n.) fear of failure, fear of not being good enough.
I want the very best in life. I want the very best for my family. I want to BE the very best for my family. All of these goals or needs require me to consistently self evaluate to seek proper methods for self enhancement. Sometimes, these changes are easy and minor and sometimes these changes require a lot of grit and willpower. I do find that fear of change or the unknown will present itself in a very powerful way in my life. My decision is do I follow the fear or do I fight against it?
A prime example I want to share with you may sound inconsequential to some but it was a teaching and turning moment for me. As you know I have been working very hard with my health and wellness. Identifying areas in my life that need clearance, removing habits and patterns that were not serving me, and instilling new practices that will improve my quality of life thus boosting the quality of life of my love ones.
Exercise is has always been important part of my life and I have no problem with executing my weight training and cardio regimen. I love it and look forward to it everyday! However, due to the conflict of scheduling and the busyiness of life I have not engaged in yoga for over a year and a half.
Yoga to me is food for my soul! There is something magical about that practice that strengthens you, edifies you, cleanses you and grounds you. My soul was yearning for yoga again.
But, this was the thing….I was afraid. I feared that since I had not practiced yoga for such a long time that I was not welcomed. My worry was that everyone in class would be staring at me. I was concerned that I wasn’t good enough to take part – strong enough to engage and shouldn’t go because of the embarrassment. Somehow my fear of failure was taking hold of my mindset. Deep inside I felt it wasn’t so much about yoga but more about me – accepting myself the way I am. Loving myself for who I am today.
To be completely honest with you and myself…ha ha! I made myself walk into that yoga room and take the yoga class because I promised my coach and mentor I was planning on doing it. I didn’t want to disappoint her. I am a woman of my word. I wasn’t doing it for me I told myself at the moment but to be accountable to her. It was the time for me to face my fear of failure.
Sweet victory! Even though originally I told myself I was going to take that yoga class because I promised someone; but, at the end I kept that promise to me and that is ALL that matters!!!
Can I just tell you after I was done with the hot yoga class that was 60 minutes long I felt like I won a gold medal! My soul was so happy and I felt a connection to it. “It” loved me back because I chose to love it first. Does that make any sense? This was the missing puzzle piece in my health and wellness — incorporating yoga into my practice. The fears that were in my head shackled me for too long now. Facing my fears head on and simply not overthinking it and just doing it was the trick!
Moments like this are so energizing for me! You got to be your best cheerleader sometimes! Rooting for yourself to win and succeed in this game called life. You know the saying that “Fear is False Evidence Appearing Real” remember that when you are faced with a decision or moment that scares or intimidates you. Learning to ignore the voices of fear and trusting your gut, intuition, and inner voice will never lead you astray.
When in your life have you faced your fear head on? Please, share with me your experience or personal tips that have helped you overcome your fears and embrace life fully.
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